Confessions of a 21 year old psycho

The fact that I call myself a Psycho is not because of lack of self esteem nor its a matter of pride but its a plain simple 'fact'. Someone said (Robin williams) "everyone is instilled with a spark of madness and its not worth losing it". Not that I read this quote and I chose to be one, I loved being 'childish', whatever that means. 'Lose control' was the raaga on which my life has been based upon so far and I like it that way.. serious no kidding.

Ok let me speak my mind on trivial, common sense based, philosophies, that convinces and even encourages me to be the way I'm. Here goes.. Life is for once, so its better to live it the way you want to. Since its only once (c'mon be practical, do u know ur previous life's configuration so to speak??), every move you make, every decision you take gains importance. After a point in time you are not 'there' cos you are meant to be there, rather you are there because you chose to be there. You are standing on a heap of decisions you had made and you continue to change the track of your life. Also keep in mind that everyone eventually wants to be happy. So trying to be careful and be seriously conscious or be conciously serious about the decisions you take makes you a serious person and hence you lose the essence of life.. being happy...
so I can conclude this.. Life happens, ticks by every second, even as I type these words, and is uncertain and is unfair for the most part, so I would prefer to help myself by staying 'light' and be impulsive and take decisions, cherish lighter moments, value people more than money, understand that education is a means and not a mandatory aspect, its worth while only if its fun doing it. At times I might have to bite the bullet and be unhappy and whine about what I am doing, yeah shit happens.. but make sure I do that 'whineable' activity cos its gonna get me to a heap which is ripe with oppurtunities to full fill my desire, the need to stay happy.

So much for my attitude... so much for my passions.... sometimes thinking is a drawback, and if you are a natural intuitive thinker like me(laugh all u want but its a fact), you are most of the times not convinced about the things you conclude that too after lotta thinking!! so "live for the moment and dont let the moment pass by" is absolutely convincing...

Also I would wanna mock all the those guys who think being childish is being not so "sophisticated" have a wrap around you and you cheat yourself for your own well earned misery... self imposed, society imposed way of existing, its just 'existance' and not living.... even a dumb algae vegetates and hence exists....

P.S: If you are planning to hire me and you decide not to cos I'm a psycho.. then I actually would wanna tell that I'm not a psycho, serious no kiddin... LOL